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Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Well, that was fun.
I am way too tired to make this blog reasonable, so I am editing my IM session with my BFF and pretending it's a real blog entry.
So I've had this constant pain in my right side for 6-8 months. I'm only not sure of the time because I spent so long trying to ignore it. But after some heinous periods and the pain getting worse I decided to do something about it. CT scans of my GI tract were clear so I moved on to gynecological issues. I'm a virgin, so I have only has one pap smear before this, and that was only a fee months back.
As much as I wanted today to magically produce an answer to the pain, I knew was was 99% unlikely. But I hoped I guess that my evil right ovary would get caught in the act assaulting my body and we could just move on from there.
Anyhow, I went to the office, filled out paperwork, saw two nurses, one who took my blood pressure and one who went over my medical history. We managed to remember to tell them NO LATEX (there's a funny/painful/itchy story behind that) He came in and was very smart and capable but also spoke very rapidly. Also, he was my mom's GYN so I felt a little awkward.
After the "pleasantries" were out of the way, I got uh, a digital exam, while he poked my abdomen. Then he used a thin, LONG speculum and peeked up inside. (it was cold)
and apparently I have a long vagina. (No, I am not kidding, he actually said this)
So, then, after that, which quite frankly I thought was bad enough, I get a two digit exam. 1 in both ends. That was distinctly uncomfortable and actually hurt a bit. In fact, PORNO LIES cause all I had was two fingers and I thought it was too tight. That's probably tmi, but to be honest, that was my least favorite part of all of this.
Anyhow, after that was done we discussed many possibilities, not the least of which were the possibilities of endometreosis or ovarian cysts. He ordered an ultrasound, which I get on Friday and fasting labs. Even though I said the pain is in two spots I think he got stuck on the higher one, cause he kept saying "That's a little high for an ovary." Honestly, I was very tired and overwhelmed so I didn't bother re-pointing out what I said, because I figure the ultrasound should show more than I can.
He also ordered the CT scans I got from my other Dr just in case they show anything pelvic, even though they were for the GI tract. Hey, the more the merrier I guess. He also said he only orders ultrasounds or MRI's instead of CT and that made me feel better because I recently discovered I am at my lifetime dose of radiation for my age due to 2 CTs of my head, 1 of my knee/ankle and 1 of my abdomen. This doesn't even include X-rays I have had for my spine, teeth, or chest x-rays. I have already decided that in the future, unless there is no other diagnostic test available, I will be opting out of CT's. But that is neither here nor there.
We discussed a hysterectomy. I know that is a big word for a 31 year old virgin with no kids to throw around, but it's unlikely I can or should conceive on my own. The biggest hurdle ironically NOT being my reproductive organs, but the fact I am Bi-Polar II. BP2 is the depressed side of BPD and I would HAVE to drop my two most effective medications while I was pregnant. That alone would make the pregnancy high risk, but also, due to family history, I'd be at risk for post-partum psychosis. It's like a lost the genetic lottery and I didn't even know I had entered. *sigh*
Anyhow, he's hoping we discover what's causing the pain before we make any drastic choices, although he seemed supportive of my choice to get a hysterectomy due to family history of cysts and only recently, uterine cancer. If the ultrasound doesn't turn up anything, then it's up to the laparoscopy. Then, if that finds endo or cysts, which could be causing the unending pain, then I am up for a hysterectomy. This is like a cross between good/terrifying news. On the one hand, I'd give anything to know/eliminate the pain. On the other hand, having to yank out my girl bits seems very very stark and drastic, even if could end my migraines and mood swings.
And in other news, the man I dated on and off for the last 2 years is now engaged. Honestly? I am thrilled because I know he's madly in love and that makes me happy, but I wish I could have found out tomorrow or a week from now. Today just wasn't the day you know?
So I've had this constant pain in my right side for 6-8 months. I'm only not sure of the time because I spent so long trying to ignore it. But after some heinous periods and the pain getting worse I decided to do something about it. CT scans of my GI tract were clear so I moved on to gynecological issues. I'm a virgin, so I have only has one pap smear before this, and that was only a fee months back.
As much as I wanted today to magically produce an answer to the pain, I knew was was 99% unlikely. But I hoped I guess that my evil right ovary would get caught in the act assaulting my body and we could just move on from there.
Anyhow, I went to the office, filled out paperwork, saw two nurses, one who took my blood pressure and one who went over my medical history. We managed to remember to tell them NO LATEX (there's a funny/painful/itchy story behind that) He came in and was very smart and capable but also spoke very rapidly. Also, he was my mom's GYN so I felt a little awkward.
After the "pleasantries" were out of the way, I got uh, a digital exam, while he poked my abdomen. Then he used a thin, LONG speculum and peeked up inside. (it was cold)
and apparently I have a long vagina. (No, I am not kidding, he actually said this)
So, then, after that, which quite frankly I thought was bad enough, I get a two digit exam. 1 in both ends. That was distinctly uncomfortable and actually hurt a bit. In fact, PORNO LIES cause all I had was two fingers and I thought it was too tight. That's probably tmi, but to be honest, that was my least favorite part of all of this.
Anyhow, after that was done we discussed many possibilities, not the least of which were the possibilities of endometreosis or ovarian cysts. He ordered an ultrasound, which I get on Friday and fasting labs. Even though I said the pain is in two spots I think he got stuck on the higher one, cause he kept saying "That's a little high for an ovary." Honestly, I was very tired and overwhelmed so I didn't bother re-pointing out what I said, because I figure the ultrasound should show more than I can.
He also ordered the CT scans I got from my other Dr just in case they show anything pelvic, even though they were for the GI tract. Hey, the more the merrier I guess. He also said he only orders ultrasounds or MRI's instead of CT and that made me feel better because I recently discovered I am at my lifetime dose of radiation for my age due to 2 CTs of my head, 1 of my knee/ankle and 1 of my abdomen. This doesn't even include X-rays I have had for my spine, teeth, or chest x-rays. I have already decided that in the future, unless there is no other diagnostic test available, I will be opting out of CT's. But that is neither here nor there.
We discussed a hysterectomy. I know that is a big word for a 31 year old virgin with no kids to throw around, but it's unlikely I can or should conceive on my own. The biggest hurdle ironically NOT being my reproductive organs, but the fact I am Bi-Polar II. BP2 is the depressed side of BPD and I would HAVE to drop my two most effective medications while I was pregnant. That alone would make the pregnancy high risk, but also, due to family history, I'd be at risk for post-partum psychosis. It's like a lost the genetic lottery and I didn't even know I had entered. *sigh*
Anyhow, he's hoping we discover what's causing the pain before we make any drastic choices, although he seemed supportive of my choice to get a hysterectomy due to family history of cysts and only recently, uterine cancer. If the ultrasound doesn't turn up anything, then it's up to the laparoscopy. Then, if that finds endo or cysts, which could be causing the unending pain, then I am up for a hysterectomy. This is like a cross between good/terrifying news. On the one hand, I'd give anything to know/eliminate the pain. On the other hand, having to yank out my girl bits seems very very stark and drastic, even if could end my migraines and mood swings.
And in other news, the man I dated on and off for the last 2 years is now engaged. Honestly? I am thrilled because I know he's madly in love and that makes me happy, but I wish I could have found out tomorrow or a week from now. Today just wasn't the day you know?
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Jars of Dreams
If I'm lucky, a few of you have wandered over from "Among the Blossoms," Welcome!
I draw for a living, and love to take commissions! I made the "Jar of Hope" that might have brought you here. Want one of your own? Well, the jar of hope I made for her is free for all, but I can make you your very own custom jar!
Examples are here Stock jars are $5, Custom jars are $10 and super customs (Jars that you want to license) are a bit more, convo me on etsy to talk about your order!
Hope you like what you see!
I draw for a living, and love to take commissions! I made the "Jar of Hope" that might have brought you here. Want one of your own? Well, the jar of hope I made for her is free for all, but I can make you your very own custom jar!
Examples are here Stock jars are $5, Custom jars are $10 and super customs (Jars that you want to license) are a bit more, convo me on etsy to talk about your order!
Hope you like what you see!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
No one reads this crap anyhow...
So today on "Wordless Wednesday" I am going to just blogpuke. Plus, my mind pockets needs to be gone through occasionally before running my brain through the wash.
People tend to do those survey type things and then forward them on and for some reason I always feel compelled to fill them out, even though I know nobody reads them. So today I am doing my own. Screw the list, I am just going to randomly type whatever comes into my head. Apologies in advance to Yen, by BFF, who endures me, for God only knows why.
1. If I put my iPod on random, and let it play for 3 days, you might hear nothing but classical music. I find this depressing. On the other hand, you might also hear Metallica, Josh Groban, and some freaking Canadian singing a song called "Bubblegum." I seriously need to get control of who sends me mp3's!
2. I sort of hate that my room is a literal vortex of something. Yes, that was vague, but only because it has several aspects to this vortex. 1 is that in the Winter, even with the heater on, my room is close to 15 degrees colder than the rest of the house, even my parents room which is directly across the hall from me. In the summer it can be 10-15 degrees warmer, and where we live, on a 115 degree day, that's like walking into a desert tomb. Also, my room absorbs smells like a box of baking soda. Ew.
3. I am a cartoonist, photographer, jewelry maker, wood worker, beader, baker, singer, poet, writer, editor, sculptor and weaver. Now if I just got off of my ass and DID SOME OF THAT!
4. There is an unfinished tapestry in my closet, I am only bothered by this because I want to finish it but don't really want to go back to the crafting class I took where I started it. I think the teacher thinks I am a flake.
5. The last save date on any of my PS2 games is 2006. I made sure not to tell this to the person who bought me my Wii. Then again, I can pay the Wii and lose weight, so I am not sure One has anything to do with the other.
6. Even though I want to save myself for marriage, and I intend to, if Jim Byrnes asked me to spend a night with him I would. And then I would text everyone I knew, regardless of the time of day or night. And yes, he is at least 30 years older than I am.
7. I think my room is going to be Steampunk/Post-Industriul Asian/Fusion. Go ahead and try to figure that out... What was that? Oh right, you can't. Don't worry, I'll post pics.
8. I really like sweet and sour stuff. Sour Starburst? Sour Starburst Jelly beans? Warhead Jellybeans? Oh yeah... in fact, if anyone got a hold of a big box of Warhead jellybeans and sent them to me, I'd be their slave.
9. I really like pointy crayons, and colour coding them, and my beads and pens and pretty much anything else that comes in more shades than 1.
10. The song with the most plays on my computer is "Writer's Block" from the 'Stranger than Fiction' soundtrack with 315 plays. #2 is also a soundtrack song with 220 plays. Much to my shame, "The Candy Cave" from Charlie the Unicorn 1 has 204 plays. Don't ask, I think I was high on Skittles.
Since this was a WORDLESS Wednesday and I crapped that all up, I am opening this bog entry up to questions. Ask anything you want!
People tend to do those survey type things and then forward them on and for some reason I always feel compelled to fill them out, even though I know nobody reads them. So today I am doing my own. Screw the list, I am just going to randomly type whatever comes into my head. Apologies in advance to Yen, by BFF, who endures me, for God only knows why.
1. If I put my iPod on random, and let it play for 3 days, you might hear nothing but classical music. I find this depressing. On the other hand, you might also hear Metallica, Josh Groban, and some freaking Canadian singing a song called "Bubblegum." I seriously need to get control of who sends me mp3's!
2. I sort of hate that my room is a literal vortex of something. Yes, that was vague, but only because it has several aspects to this vortex. 1 is that in the Winter, even with the heater on, my room is close to 15 degrees colder than the rest of the house, even my parents room which is directly across the hall from me. In the summer it can be 10-15 degrees warmer, and where we live, on a 115 degree day, that's like walking into a desert tomb. Also, my room absorbs smells like a box of baking soda. Ew.
3. I am a cartoonist, photographer, jewelry maker, wood worker, beader, baker, singer, poet, writer, editor, sculptor and weaver. Now if I just got off of my ass and DID SOME OF THAT!
4. There is an unfinished tapestry in my closet, I am only bothered by this because I want to finish it but don't really want to go back to the crafting class I took where I started it. I think the teacher thinks I am a flake.
5. The last save date on any of my PS2 games is 2006. I made sure not to tell this to the person who bought me my Wii. Then again, I can pay the Wii and lose weight, so I am not sure One has anything to do with the other.
6. Even though I want to save myself for marriage, and I intend to, if Jim Byrnes asked me to spend a night with him I would. And then I would text everyone I knew, regardless of the time of day or night. And yes, he is at least 30 years older than I am.
7. I think my room is going to be Steampunk/Post-Industriul Asian/Fusion. Go ahead and try to figure that out... What was that? Oh right, you can't. Don't worry, I'll post pics.
8. I really like sweet and sour stuff. Sour Starburst? Sour Starburst Jelly beans? Warhead Jellybeans? Oh yeah... in fact, if anyone got a hold of a big box of Warhead jellybeans and sent them to me, I'd be their slave.
9. I really like pointy crayons, and colour coding them, and my beads and pens and pretty much anything else that comes in more shades than 1.
10. The song with the most plays on my computer is "Writer's Block" from the 'Stranger than Fiction' soundtrack with 315 plays. #2 is also a soundtrack song with 220 plays. Much to my shame, "The Candy Cave" from Charlie the Unicorn 1 has 204 plays. Don't ask, I think I was high on Skittles.
Since this was a WORDLESS Wednesday and I crapped that all up, I am opening this bog entry up to questions. Ask anything you want!
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